things and more things

So first and foremost, i need to start blogging more. I know no one reads this but hey it feels great to get it out in the open per se! So i started school...college! in my 7th week and man it gets more hectic each day with balancing work and my daughter and school and relationships! I am taking melody to get some pictures taken tomorrow and shes sooo excited because she will be wearing her Easter dress =D My friend Rose gave me a great idea after watching the "eyes through a 3 yr old video" She basically gave her youngest a camera and told ehr to take pictures of things of importance and omg! its SO cute! I am going to buy Melody like 4 or 5 cameras the disposable ones of course (or maybe get some courage and let her use mine lol) and the first day of summer of vacation i am going to have her a take a few pictures each day. For example if we go to the beach people of importance to her the park things of that sort...make a collage for her make doubles of the photos so i can make her own little photo album of stuff SHE took a picture of....well anyways she is stillll up right now! i cant even go to bed bc she is still awake...shes having a hard time falling asleep at night even when she doesnt nap in the afternoon! and its almost 130am!!! seriously!!! but heres an updated picture of her for now!

So i asked jr last night if he could give me the check on saturday in the morning since we had to head up that way anyways he said yes. shocking yes i know!!! well the following morning (saturday) i call him at 815am no answer called him at 845am no answer called again at around 9am and agin at like 925am no answer get to the job n called him....nothing....called like 15 dang times today and he ignores me...i mean wtf! ughhh i hate this feeling of f**k the world....

Im sooo excited for melodys party yet again im soo stressed... its very aggravating!stressed not because of her party but bc of bills n krap! Today i broke the back driver side window by trying to roll it down...that sucked! no money to fix that...now my car is making weird noises n smelling some weird odor smell....again it sucks! not sure how much longer i can do this whole paycheck to paycheck krap...my daughter deserves more than what i can give her....she is only 4 and she tells me mommy its ok i still love you thats all that matters! (cute huh?!!?) anyways just got done making brownies for the football game tomorrow n did dishes so im off to bed toodles for now and night night!

wow been awhile!

SO...apparently i havent blogged in awhile! (obviously) but thigns are going ok melody sbirthday party is comming up im soo excited for that! Melody started school (kinder) her teacher says she one of the best in the class im sooo proud of my baby!!! i might be gettin a new job hooray!!! lets just see what happens i guess! i was in the hospital for 5 n a half days it sucked! said i had a bad viral infection with fluids in my heart and lungs and my liver was enlarged and my heart was dropping too much so i was stuck in isolation on a heart monitor....fun! =/ for those that dont know (if any even reads this) my birth mother found me well she just emailed me guessing it would be me....then i met my cousin!!!! Cade and his family! his kids are soo cute!!! i miss him tho hes been getting sick ...everytiem he goes into the hospital i cry! u just never know what could go wrong even for the simple cold n cough!
Why does it seem like i dont have any friends!!! i have a few close ones of course but dang even my bestfriend moved away from me =( ehh anyways done with this for today will try and keep blogging as much as i can! XOXO

and then some...

So the past few or so days i havent been writin nothin in here. Well thats because nothing HAS gone on!!! yes as many of u may already know or maybe dont know i have a very boring life. Just wish i had money so we could go play miniature golf or bowling once a month would be fun....damn money! me and melody cleaned out her room today and man!!! i didnt know a 4 yr old can stuff so much trash in a toy box! she had like 15 pairs of pants but no shes down to 3 or 4 because the rest didnt fit her! wtf! i swear if melodys dad doesnt start giving any money by the 1st of april im going to the court house and filing for custody and child support and BELIEVE ME i will try my best to get every penny outta him and as much custody i can! hes lucky im only askin for 150 a paycheck! ive been so easy on him which i shouldnt! guess i can be stupid haha! at least she has me and joe. joe has taken more care of her than her own dad has...i mean damn like a month ago she asked me in front of her dad and joe if she can go to his house i said not tonight bc daddy works tomorrow shes said ahh man and i told her if he doesnt work that comming up weekend then she could he said mmhmm wtf kinda response is that to a 4 yr old! so the weekend comes and goes he didnt work from what i remember and nothing not even a call to his OWN daughter! ahhh he aggravates me! sometimes i just wanna go to his house and punch him and his bitch ass gf in the fuckin face! enough of that.....before i get even more pissed off about it! anyways other than that im good! ta ta for now!

EASTER!

First off Happy Easter to everyone reading this! today was pretty fun for the most part. me n melody went to church n then went to my parents for a little bit so we can say goodbye to my cousins and aunt again...gee wish they coulda stayed longer but its okay. then came home to get joe so we can go to his aunts house for food!!! yummy! this year i didnt do the whole egg painting and hiding the eggs thing bc melody got lots and lots of chocolates anyways so i figured shed be ok on that part. stayed at his aunts house for a few hours and drank some beers. not to much goin on else wise so this is obviously a short blog! lucky for those who are reading this!

the bunny drop egg hunt!

So today was alot of fun although tiring!!! brought joe to work which is a drag to wake up when u dont wanna haha! but then rhoda calls sayin she didnt get home from the casino till like 7am ...who the hell spends that much time at a fuckin casino! and then she decides to say ohh she has diahrrea(LOL) im not stupid she was to tired to go bc she gambled all night! so anyways i took melody and venus my coworker and her 2 kids to the bunny drop egg hunt thing in la mesa or where ever the hell it was. had lots of fun got lots of pictures but im only gonna put one. they did the easter egg hunt and each of them got one! one fuckin egg.....wtf....lol anyways actually melody didnt get any so venus took one from her sons basket cuz he actually got two! and dropped it on the floor and said melody look!!! by this time melody was crying and i felt so bad...my poor baby....so she got excited about that n ate the candy my lil grubber!then we went and they rode the ponies!!!!



they had two times for each age group to do the easter egg hunt but venus had to work that night so i said why dont we just go get pizza n we can go home so she can rest.....then bam the water works comes from her two kids sayin they want to ride the bouncy house.....but we got them settled down...sorta lol and then joe calls for me to come and pick him up so there went pizza for lunch out the window DAMMIT! i was actually lookin forward to grubbin on that! so i went and picked him and got home and called my parents so i can go over bc my aunt n two cousins were in town and of course...noone answers.....called again an hour n a half later noone...so i called my mom on her cell and low and behold there downtown on the midway ship! wtf i never been there take me!!!! maybe i can get joe to take me haha yea right....so my dad finally calls at like 4 or 5 pm to go over there and got suckered by my aunt to play phase 10...she thought it was "face 10" ROFL my filipino lil family cracks me up....i had fun though melody had fun and joe well he stayed at home lol but he worked that day so its somewhat understandable plus when i go to my parents i like to visit for a few hours since i hardly see them....ok i admit like 5 hours 8 hours whatever!!! but all that matters is we had fun and now we have church tomorrow at 930am and then goin to joes aunts n uncles house for more family time YAY! happy easter everyone!

stupid stores

So today i went to the 99cents store to get some stuff for melodys easter basket and htought dang i got a bunch of stuff for really cheap!!! i was soo stoked. i then had to go to walmart to get shampoo and conditioner and out of curiosity of course it struck the cat(me) bc walmart had the same shit bigger better and the same price!!!!! omfg i was so pissed when i got back in the car i wanted to chuck everything out the window i got from the 99cents store but then i thought thats 12 bucks wasted so nvm damn stores!!!!!