So i asked jr last night if he could give me the check on saturday in the morning since we had to head up that way anyways he said yes. shocking yes i know!!! well the following morning (saturday) i call him at 815am no answer called him at 845am no answer called again at around 9am and agin at like 925am no answer get to the job n called him....nothing....called like 15 dang times today and he ignores me...i mean wtf! ughhh i hate this feeling of f**k the world....

Im sooo excited for melodys party yet again im soo stressed... its very aggravating!stressed not because of her party but bc of bills n krap! Today i broke the back driver side window by trying to roll it down...that sucked! no money to fix that...now my car is making weird noises n smelling some weird odor smell....again it sucks! not sure how much longer i can do this whole paycheck to paycheck krap...my daughter deserves more than what i can give her....she is only 4 and she tells me mommy its ok i still love you thats all that matters! (cute huh?!!?) anyways just got done making brownies for the football game tomorrow n did dishes so im off to bed toodles for now and night night!

wow been awhile!

SO...apparently i havent blogged in awhile! (obviously) but thigns are going ok melody sbirthday party is comming up im soo excited for that! Melody started school (kinder) her teacher says she one of the best in the class im sooo proud of my baby!!! i might be gettin a new job hooray!!! lets just see what happens i guess! i was in the hospital for 5 n a half days it sucked! said i had a bad viral infection with fluids in my heart and lungs and my liver was enlarged and my heart was dropping too much so i was stuck in isolation on a heart monitor....fun! =/ for those that dont know (if any even reads this) my birth mother found me well she just emailed me guessing it would be me....then i met my cousin!!!! Cade and his family! his kids are soo cute!!! i miss him tho hes been getting sick ...everytiem he goes into the hospital i cry! u just never know what could go wrong even for the simple cold n cough!
Why does it seem like i dont have any friends!!! i have a few close ones of course but dang even my bestfriend moved away from me =( ehh anyways done with this for today will try and keep blogging as much as i can! XOXO